You feel overwhelmed by the events and need to reconsider the situation you are in. Given the important life choices, you are not in the best of shape yet, and recognize that it is best to postpone all important meetings until you feel more positive and make some important decisions about your future.
The decision rash decisions turns out to be counterproductive and has unforeseen consequences for the future. Do not make decisions without thinking it through carefully. Your desire for praise and success can thwart you, make your colleagues successful and pursue a much more modest strategy.
Your physical condition and overall health will improve if you stay calm. The strength you have is increased as you master your energy level. Too much exhausting exercise can tire you out. If this is the case you need to relax and sleep enough to regenerate your body.